A New Dawn
Long story short, I’ve been putting this off.
The world is calling for me to start sharing my voice in a really big way and I thought what better time to birth this new era than on the spring equinox?
Spiritual Suppression
If you followed along on my soul journey in 2021, you would know that I’ve been spiritual my whole life, but like most people in my metaphysical shoes, I shut down my gifts. Looking back now, I can see I was built for a world that didn’t yet exist. I felt out of place, alone, longed to go back home, and tried my best to just be “normal.”
I suffered with depression most of my life and although I don’t think back on any one time as being a “spiritual awakening,” I had many on-the-bathroom-floor dark nights of the soul. The thing that continued to get me through the most challenging times in my life was this deep knowing that I was here for a reason.
So-Called Spiritual Awakening
I was always a seeker, but there were a couple of pivitol moments that stand out as nudging me back onto my spiritual path. In 2000, my grandmother died and I picked up the book Life After Death by Mary T. Browne. This renowned psychic revealed what happens when we die and it was exactly what I needed at the time. Eventually my grandmother would visit me in my dreams to reassure me everything was going to be okay.
After my grandfather passed away in 2004, I purchased their home and looking back, this is when I started becoming aware of my psychic senses… although it would be years before I realized it was a real thing. I fequently smelled toast around the house, mostly in the early morning, and quickly made the connection it was my grandpa paying a visit. He would even set things out for me in his workshop when I needed them. One afternoon I was puttering around the house with the TV on in the kitchen when I heard Wayne Dyer on PBS. I very clearly remember it drawing me into the kitchen and I just stood there listening. It was like for the first time, I was hearing someone talk about what I always knew to be true.
My Healing Journey
These experiences continued through the years, but it wasn’t until I had been living with a chronic health diagnosis for several years, in 2018, I chose to abandon western medicine’s approach and work to heal myself from the inside out. The first step was weaning off meds with the help of my doctor and then making a commitment to follow leads that came up for me. Basically, if it was coming into my awareness, I decided to trust it was there for a reason. You could say I was laying the groundwork for the spiritual revolution to come, but I didn’t know it. I was focused on healing and clearing and getting back to my optimal health.
It wasn’t until the pandemic dawned in 2020, I really began to see what was in store for me. I began learning more about lightworkers and that they came to earth during this time to help usher in a new way of being on the planet. I was told in a variety of different ways I was going to be a leader, I was a beacon of light for others, and all I had to do was be myself. What the hell does that mean?!
Showing Up Authentically
Learning to be your true authentic self is a goal some people never accomplish during a lifetime here on earth, but I’m dedicated to stripping away all I’ve learned that is not in alignment with the real me so I can shine authentically. This is obviously still a work in progress.
As a matter of fact, perfectionism is one of those things I’ve struggled with in my lifetime. I did a lot of work around this back in 2018 and I’ve come a long way, but it’s still in there. I’ve been working diligently behind the scenes to get my website in order before I put myself out there, but it’s a work in progress just like me.
So I’m here. I’m showing up not done. I’m not perfect, but it might be that part of my spiritual journey can help others and I’m here for it. Buckle up because we’re just getting started.
